It's just not our time yet...

 It's not something we ever talk about. It's  not something many people know, but today with another great defeat and struggle I just want to admit it out loud. I want more than anything in the world to be a mom. It seems everyone around is announcing their wonderful new addition on the way. I can't ever wish bad luck to anyone else and I can honestly say I am truly happy for anyone who truly wants to be a parent and that dream becomes a reality.  But today I just want hold my own... or see those two pink lines on the stick. To smell that new baby smell, or even to wake up at 4 am to the cries of my baby boy or girl. I have to stay positive and believe is us and my dr. but today is not that day. I pray and hope... I guess its just not our time yet....