Total Late night Rant!

So I know blogs are suppose to be happy and uplifting, but tonight so not my goal. I have had one of the most stressful and scary months of my life ...(no need to go into details at this time) but it bothers me so much and makes me plain angry how people can turn their heads and walk away.

      I have a few very close people that I talk to when things in life are rough and I guess I should realize by now that a certain saying should being my motto for a while.

             I hold certain people so close to my heart. They are kind and compassionate and seem to say the right things, but just as easy they forget you. I can not comprehend how my "best friends" have been to me lately. I call them crying and pooring some of the deepest things to them and then I dont hear a word for over two weeks. I dont understand it. It hurts and makes me angry and more than anything I am finally realizing that it is not because of my flaws but because of theirs. They are simply wrapped up in their own lives. They care when its convieniant and want to appear a great deal more compassionate than that which truly resides in their heart.   On the flip side I do see who are my true friends and really care. I find love and compassion in places I didn't expect it or look for it first. Its true what they say for sure thou... Family is always there. Whether it's my wonderful sister, cousin, or an unexpected inlaw; I am thankful for the angels here on earth.

The meaning of Christmas

    We got to go home for Christmas this year and be together! It is amazing how much more it meant to me to just to be together and to be with our families. I got to meet my other brother in-laws and their fiances. Zack and Josh are just delightful men. I felt more a part of the family than I ever thought I would that fast. The Girton's always welcome us with more love and care than ever anticipated. I just love my In-law family!
         On Christmas Eve we went to my brother Zacks house for appetizers, presents, and the much anticipated Fireworks!! I couldn't wait; I couldn't wait to see everyone open what I got them, to see the smiles on those kids faces. To see the love in our family that is the meaning of Christmas to me. To finish the evening off we lit these huge fireworks off that I got from Wyoming. The kids were screaming and squelling. Oh it was simply priceless. At the end of the evening we went back to Jeff and Lori's house. Everyone was sitting around in their pjs just waiting for us to get home so we could open ours. After putting our new pjs on I began to share a Larsen tradition with my other family. The Christmas Orange Story. Its a very touching story that has been told to me as a child and I have continued it as my own tradition. As I read this story Drew stood near by peeling  one medium orange to split amongst the 9 of us sitting around. Upon finishing a story I have read or heard more than a dozen times I broke down in tears. My Father came to mind and his great spirit of Christmas that he held in his heart. He was so inspiring to me about what we need to remember each Christmas season. This holiday is about the birth of Christ and the sacrafices he made for us. Its about giving not recieving. Its about Family! I love my families so much and so blessed to have all that I have! I am sad that its already the new year, just because I love Christmas so much!!
            I was horrible about taking pictures this trip, so when I gather what I took I will add them.